Hey a whole two days
Thats gotta count for something, right? Maybe i should make a reward system for myself, but what would motivate me to keep a streak? As traumatizing as it is, its calming and soothing and thats what keeps me to it. Afterwards, seeing and feeling what I've done just for it to stay there for a while. It makes me sad to look at and think about, but running my hand along just makes me feel kinda accomplished. I can taint myself but i can't even finish a simple sketch. I wonder what went wrong, for everything to be like this. More mentally ill than I thought possible, self destructive as hell, becoming so discoherent i can't even solve an algebra problem. Maybe I burned through all of my braincells by being so smart as a kid. If I met my younger self, what would i do? What would i ask? What would we converse about? Would he look up or down to me? Either way, no one knows everything. Especially so young, its rare one would be in enough experiences to gain wisdom or any forshadowing. None of us are as smart as we think but we also very highly underestimate ourselves. The f--- am I saying?
Dont get mad at me cause you ask me to do something and either oversimplify or overexplain how you want it done
"We could've been making so much money"
Well then how the f--- come you never said anything about it? Even if you did it was only once and i think its common sense to relay important information like that SEVERAL TIMES SO IT f---ING GETS THROUGH
I try to do one nice thing since i said id take care of the Facebook but how do you expect me to do that with nothing to work with? Never even said "hey have you posted on fb" or "you should post about the trees" or nothing then just laughs at me when i didnt know something you never told me? Something he never told me either?
