It's been really hard for me not to self harm..
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Thread Topic: It's been really hard for me not to self harm..
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I just don't want to deal with life any more I really don't.. I don't want to wait 4 years to be with the love of my life.. I don't want to deal with my mum.. I don't want to live without a dad.. I don't want to become insane.. I don't want to self harm because it will hurt the people I love.. I don't want to start taking out my rage and pain on other people.. I do however want to die very much.. then I wouldn't have to deal with any of that.. there would just be nothing.. it's just hell that awaits me.. I'd rather go there than stay alive..
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And no one cares... s--- please something kill me.. please kill me and end this f---ing s---.. kill me... kill me.. kill me..
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You have to suck it up and live it out, for her.
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Or I can die and all the s--- will end.
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*hugs* I care. And I don't know what to say. I know whatever I say won't matter. I've been whee you are, I know how awful that feels, but you just have to keep going.
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Lucky I don't want to... soon I'm going to sleep.. and I don't ever want to wake up..
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I get it. Trust me, I get it. But it's honestly not worth all the s--- it's going to put other people through.
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Lucky too bad I won't be around when my loved ones will be hurt by my death..
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How are you gonna do it? Trust me, every method has it's flaws. If your loved ones can't guilt you out of it then maybe logic will.
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Lucky jump of a cliff. Or a bridge. Either way I'll fall onto rocks and die.
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How far down is it? How jagged are the rocks. What if you miss the rocks? What if you scream when you hit them and alert someone? What if someone finds you before you die and gets you to a hospital?
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Luckie the cliff is an inactive volcano. I won't miss the rocks but if I do I'll drown. I'll shut my eyes.
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There's still that possibility that someone will ind you. And I speak from experience when I say you'll wake up in a hospital surrounded by terrified people who care about you. How will you explain it?
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Lucky I'll tell them that they are ass holes like I always do.
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