I know you said you didnt want to hear from me, but I just wanted to prove to you want I kept saying.
I had all my devices taken away because of all the s--- I kept telling you about. I never wanted to f---ing leave you and I sure as hell didn't hate you, but you were so convinced that it was all about you that you didn't see that I was only trying to keep things from falling apart. I can only get online at school now and I have no idea when, or if I will ever get my devices back. It might be a very long time before we even can talk to each other...
NOt like you care though. I mean we made it pretty clear that we are each others problems and that we dont care so whatever. f--- life.
btw am only typing this because I told my dad my phone needed to charge... I am going to get in a s--- loaad of trouble for even telling you this ibut idgaf.
NOw go on to whatever little whine ou were pursuing about how this is all because I hate you or whatever. You werent wrong to be doing so since I do... I just wanted to gloat at your stupidity.
I said I was sorry, if you'd actually look...Which I am, I'm sorry, this is going to end up killing me inside, and I was right, I can't do this again, so I'm not going to have anyone else. Savannah, if we ever talk again just know that deep down, I don't hate you, I never did, you were never my problem...it was my own self pity, and selfishness that brought this down and if I could make up for it somehow, I would, I'd do anything, I swear...it was my own anger at other things that started this and it was my anger that might as well have ended my life...I don't know what I'm supposed to go do now, besides go die in a hole...I'm sorry I ruined this...If I could, I'd take all this back not even in a heartbeat...
...And I just typed about 11 paragraphs and they're all gone because of a stupid glitch. But it boils down to:
I know what your deal is, you don't want me to be with her. But this is going to tear me apart, maybe to the point of suicide. All I know is is that I am 14, my name is Alexander, I love Savannah, and if you're going to take her away from me, I have nothing left to live for, so I am not going down without the fight of my life. This all has happened before with someone else, and it nearly killed me. But Savannah was there to help me through it. But this time, I have no one. And if you ever see me "in the real world", don't expect me to be "nice" because you're taking away the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. And don't expect me to make it through. because you might as well be chopping my head off right now.
It's also a misconception that kids don't know how bad the world is, because we do. Most of us, anyway, and it's the very very lucky one's who remain innocent until they become an adult. I don't care what people here know about me, because this is a site chock full of 13 year olds, and I don't honestly think that 13 year olds are going to try that hard on finding me, and if they were to, it probably wouldn't be for a bad cause, like you grown ups think the whole internet is made up of.
Oh, and just because the whole world can see what I put here, doesn't at all mean that the whole world will see what I put here. Not even close.
Oh, and yeah, it probably does sound like I'm 20 or something by the way I type but I assure you, I am how old I say I am, 14, it's just that being on GoToQuiz for over a year has really sped up my maturing process, since I've had to learn to defend myself numerous times, including against total idiots, so...