I'm not sure why I'm still on this site.
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Thread Topic: I'm not sure why I'm still on this site.
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I don't know if I should leave or not. Every day is nice until I come on here to talk to you guys, and my whole day is ruined. It keeps happening over and over again. Like today I made a thread about a dream I had and then went to church and got a new bible and sung with the choir and danced with some little kids, I was hugged by a couple of people who congratulated me on being brave for praying for my brother, I was called gorgeous a couple of times and the teachers loved to have seen me back there again this morning and they gave me some cookies and offered a good seat in the altar to sit with them, though I had to turn them down because I came with my aunt and she wanted me to sit with her. I love my church and I love Jesus, yes I do.
I came home and checked some of my threads on here and a couple of people said something mean and my feelings were hurt. I didn't want to start an argument, but I was very hurt. Then I remembered what the deacon said to me about modesty when I told them about my problems online (yes, I was that brave - I told him about some of you guys and some of the choir members said they're just jealous of me). He said, "Madison, don't let those mean people online hurt you. You're a beautiful young lady and those people are just shallow people who hate on you because you are too good for them. Do you know why? You believe in Jesus. Jesus loves you and prepares you for the hate you'll get. Nobody is perfect - but you're very close. I can tell that when you're older, you're going to be famous and you're going to tell them that you told them so. Modesty is key, though - arguments never solve anything. Especially when with people you don't even know. Make peace with them. Then you'll be the best person."
So I didn't fight with you guys.
But I swear that this website is too addicting to handle. I'm not even sure if I can trust any of you guys, because I remember when most people called me Brown-Brown and now things have changed. Hm. I'm kind of hated here, I'm dwelling with negativity and undeserving love according to others. And I don't like that. I wish I could just go back in time and transform myself into a whole new person. Where I'd be so great to you guys and I wouldn't be as hated and disrespected and looked down upon as I am now. I'm regretful whenever I come on. I don't know why I try to be nice to you guys anymore. -
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But what I got from that is you assume we hate you? I don't hate you kid._. -
Me neither! .-.
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I'm saying that I'm not sure why I come on here anymore is because most of you guys hate me and I don't want half of the site looking down upon my existence, because what's nice in talking to people who don't like you?
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I don't hate you, either.
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*Is biting lip*
Well, have you ever complained? -
BUT WE LOVE YOU
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I thought so because once you got mad at me for telling somebody to kill themselves a couple of months ago.
Not that I remember of. If so, a long time ago.
Are you sure about that? -
ALL THAT HAVE POSTED HERE LOVE YOU
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I don't like some of the things you do, but I'm not convinced that you're hopeless. I still think you could be absolutely fantastic.
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Most people don't hate you. I certainly don't. The only thing that turns people off is how dramatic you can be at times. You make things a bigger deal than they are sometimes.
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Eh...
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Really?
Well, thank you, if that was a compliment. -
I guess, but it's because I'm a dumb--- little girl with dumb--- little thoughts. I take things as a bigger hit than what normal people would.
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I think it was probably a compliment.
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