My mom honestly makes me want to go kill myself.
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Thread Topic: My mom honestly makes me want to go kill myself.
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Honestly. She makes me feel like the biggest piece of s--- ever.
We were talking and she asks if I'm angry (because I looked like it) and I said "No, you always have your angered face but you're not mad."
Then I don't know, she got offended and muttered something under her breath about my aunts saying that I 'treated her badly'. Then I said "Excuse me?" then she says "Nothing", so then I say "Mom, if you're going to say something" then she cuts me off and she scream "I already told you what I was going to say!"
So then I just go to my room without excusing myself because I seriously felt so bad and I just curled up and cried for a good half hour or so.
It's a problem. I know that this is mainly her fault for not wanting to cooperate, because I'm being as nice and honest as I can. But when these things happen, I always feel like it's all my fault and I deserve to die because I'm not but a disgrace, and that my mother is angry that I didn't come out like my other siblings and she finds me pathetic and low.
Half of my family hates me, too. The only people I'm aware that like me are my little cousins, and they're oblivious to the fact that half of the people I know would give anything to see me dead or suffer.
Which reminds me, the twin's birthdays are tomorrow and that is contributing to me wanting to go kill myself already.
I was in such a good mood today.. Really, I was. Mister found time to ask me if I was okay after my breakdown and I told him that I was feeling better. Then he told me that he's been noticing since the Spelling Bee that something was wrong with me and holy s--- it took me so much to not start crying because someone actually gave more than half a s--- for me. Sure it's a teacher, but it's something.
But then I come home and here I am, screwing s--- up because I'm such an impossibly b----y person and I treat everything like if I can't be delicate with it, then I piss everyone off and that's why everyone hates me.
Es que me voy a volver loca. I'm going to go crazy. I haven't slept more than 4 hours in a month and I'm overcome with so much stress from school and everything, and suddenly everything seem like a competition and I get no support from anyone anymore..
Ahg, I hate myself. Really I do. I'm not worth anything and I'd understand why people just decide to keep their distance most of the time.. -
take a hot bath/ shower, relax your nerves and muscles and then take some nyquill and go too sleep ._.
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Might as well overdose on the nyquill..
None of that helps me anymore like it used to. It's harder to soothe me. -
Alice don't you dare.
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Please don't kill yourself. All those people who hate you can guy crawl in a hole and die because they have no reason to resent you except for selfish reasons. You are an amazing person with amazing talent and you can have an amazing future.
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That's my mom. o.o
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my mom does that to me all the time :(
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would it make you feel better if i let you kiss my owie better? ._.
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ladylaughalot NewbieMy mom drives me crazy 2 I just turn on the Beatles or Bruno Mars and tune her out or maybe my jazz by Larry lovestein
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