Let's see, I shall attempt this.
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Thread Topic: Let's see, I shall attempt this.
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Well, things everyone should know about me.
I'm an idealist, regularly being slapped over the head with realism on a daily basis. I wonder why things have to be so hard and complicated, and why the world has to be so cold. I care about the weaker, the ones who want to stand up but can't. Even though I don't exactly see myself having children of my own someday, I want to help as many as I can and everyday make somebody feel loved. I believe that human life and dignity is of higher worth than any riches you could ever find.
I care. I care more than people know. I don't say these things to sound extraordinarily kind or good hearted, I truly feel this way. These are the ideals I hold and practice everyday. It's who I am. I end up spreading myself out thinly because I want to help as many as I can, but it doesn't always work out. That's why sometimes I seem unreliable, but in truth it's never my intention. One of the most painful thoughts is losing loved ones by suicide or sudden death.
I believe that everything happens for a reason, and everything in the universe has it's place and time. That even in the most painful and dark moments, you have to be hopeful, you have to stay determined, and you have to move along. That there will be happiness, but there will also be sorrow. That if there is still air passing through your lungs, there's still a reason to live. That it's never over until it's over.
When I get frustrated, or overwhelmed by the world, I say things that are the exact opposite of what I want, like I hate humanity, that I wish it all destroyed/died, that sometimes I wish I'd stop living. It's simply the feeling of defeat in the moment and sadness, but I always remind myself of what I believe, and that we just have to keep going. I don't cry easily, unless something utterly touches my heart, something sweet and innocent that is forgotten in the noise of life. The other kind of time I cry is when I've gotten so overwhelmed that I burst at the most random thing, like my mom's irritation of something small, or even getting a nerf ball thrown at my head. :P
I try to keep a happy, bubbly spirit, and most of the time I enjoy it. Though sometimes when I'm truly feeling depressed, I have to put more effort into it. I see everyone as equals, regardless of gender, race, beliefs, background, whatever. No one is a second class citizen, and no one's getting special treatment. It's all about character. The most simple aspect about me is 'If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you. If you're rude to me, I won't be rude nor kind, I'll just end up cutting that negativity out of my life.
Lastly, I've built a world of my own inside my head. It's my true escape, true sanctuary. I have characters and languages I interact with when no one's watching. I'm not crazy, but even if I am, it keeps me from going insane. :P I love creativity, and it is my dream that in my life I bring this world somehow into this 'real' world.
Okay, I guess this is it on who I am. I'm so sorry this is so long. ;3; But I'm telling you guys, even if you don't read this, I needed to get it out. I always feel misunderstood and stuck inside myself. Ever since I've taken a stance for myself, and learned who I am, I've always been the 'in-betweener'. Between Christians and atheists, between radical Christians and gay rights, between Republican and Democrat. I embrace that though, because at the very end of the day, I don't want to be anybody but me. x3 -
o.o Too much reading for a hurt head... Sorry.. I'll have to look at this tomorrow.
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