My room
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Thread Topic: My room
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*sits in room with white walls**wall behind bed is red**has photos printed on canvas hanging on walls showing pictures of Paris, London, New York, a beach somewhere, mountains, and a black and white photo of a rose on a book, the rose is red* *three bookshelves stand in room*
*is wearing headphones**writting in journel*
Sometimes we have the moments of nothingness. Where we sit, feeling empty, waiting for feeling or emotion to hit us...but we wait desperatly and find nothing. In these moments our true fears and doubts invade us, hurt us and attempt to destroy us...and we feel something. Pain, depression. Its feeling but a hole still exists in our chest and is filled up with these doubts, fears and sad thoughts. These moments make us doubt life, doubt everything and make us long for purpose. That's what I long for...purpose. Its all I've ever wanted, to feel as if I'm needed, and that if I do die someday, atleast I'll be missed. In these moments its hard to stay positive, that blade or knife in the kitchen cupboard can be so tempting, but I've chosen not to let life win. I will not give in, I shall let myself become stubborn and challenge life each time. See what it has, watch as it attempts to break me and make me fall apart. No dwear life, I'm no easy battle. I'm too stupid and stubborn to ever give in -
Hmmm...stubborn and stupid, yes I guess that's me. All that matters right now though is that I just have to keep moving and try not be selfish, I could always try doing that fundraising I've been dieing to start, one where I can raise money for the orphange, its so sad how torn apart that place is...the building is falling apart, the atmosphere is so bad. Maybe if I donate enough money I'll be able to nake a difference in those kids lives, that'd be nice...I like making other people smile
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I could do a fun walk...or something like that. Hmm..well now I'm not in a postition to do anything right now, since Mave is sitting on my lap and is very comfortable. She's vibrating like a cell-phone from all this purring. Wow she's even warm like a cell-phone when I use it for more than an hour...and she's licking my arm. Is this cat a cell-phone or a dog? Or maybe I'm just very tasty.
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Oh wow, now she moved her but and is sitting on my book. "Its okay, I'm wearing really big knickers" its good, very funny and rude. And I guess I know what Georgie feels like a lot of the time too..except I don't have snogging withdrawl and I'm not moving to Kiwi-a gogo land which is also known as New Zealand. Atleast we both try to have humour when we're miserable. Ha! I swear if this cat becomes anymore like a cell-phone,my dad will complain about her too. Awwe poor Mave, she walks like a penguin sometimes because of her weak bones. I feel sorry for old cats, and then she has Jack attacking her every moment. No wonder she hides in my room
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Damn its almost Christmas, I really need to start working on that Cd for Zane, but how am I supposed to give it to him? Mail? Maybe I could try...but I just need to find out his adress. Sometimes I wonder why he likes me so much...I'm quite boring
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It hurts knowing that someday he'll find some perfect girl, but no matter whatever happens I'll always be there for him. Even if I have to be a friend, whatever as long as I can be there for him and he's happy. Now the Cd, I'll think of something, I just hope he celebrates Christmas xD
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Hey
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*walks in*
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hello peoples
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Hi.
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