I’m not an atheist, but I’m not religious. I believe that there could be a high power, whether it be God or somebody else, or more than one.
But no matter what I associate myself with in terms of religion, I’ve always believed that everything happens for a reason. I never beat myself up over mistakes, because I also believe that everything is a lesson.
It helps me cope, helps me understand why I’m feeling that way that I’m feeling.
And it’s never been hard to stick to my beliefs, since I genuinely trust that everything that happens to me is an opportunity to grow.
But moving from Texas felt like a big step back. It really did make me think about what I believed in, and whether or not I was right or wrong. Because I didn’t learn anything from the move, all I did was cry. No lesson, no growth, just breaking myself down and undoing every positive change that I had made for myself.
And if a higher power existed, did they even care about me? Because I was so sad, and I still am.
It feels like Texas didn’t happen. Like it wasn’t meant to have ever had happened. Even though it’s been the best part of my life so far. My friends, school, everything. It was perfect and now nothing is.
and I had homework last night from science that I couldn't do because of Mock Trial, and so I need to do that today. But I can't postpone anything due tonight because I have another quiz the following day.
And I've been managing things so that I do bigger assignments on days where I have less work, but then teachers start assigning other big assignments on that same day, but two days before so that I can't do anything earlier or later.
Theyre teaching one f---ing subject, and I'm taking seven
My mom just gave me a bracelet that's been in her bag for awhile bc she forgot to give it to me for christmas. But it's the same bracelet that we ordered for my friend for xmas, and she saw that I liked it so got me one too. And don't get me wrong, it's super pretty and I actually would wear it, but my friend had this one first and I don't wanna seem like I'm copying her,
But idk how to tell my mom that I dont wanna wear this bracelet bc its the same one as my friends
I wasn't able to be on the treadmill for an hour, like 20 minutes or so. Not bc I was lazy but the outsides of my feet just started to hurt really badly, and I don't wanna hurt it any more.
So I'll skip to the ab workout, then maybe ice my foot.
