My bestie is really unreliable and that kinda sucks :/
Honestly miss spending time with her but like I guess if she's not making any effort to actually spend quality time with me that's on her. Hope she pulls her life together and realizes how much she'll isolate herself and self destruct. All I can do is wait for her to come back really.
When she's got too much on her plate she gets anxiety and clamors up and stops reaching out
And I make myself available to her, but she doesn't open up and so I'm lost bc idk what's going on with her
And when she's so withdrawn I have no one I can confide in. Not that I have anything I need to share atm but it's nice when you can talk with your bestie abt anything instead of casual topics and how is your day
Wish she would actually treat me like her best friend instead of shutting me out all the time
Me and B made plans to hang out with her last Mon, but she ditched us
I was kinda upset so I haven't texted her until today to see if she wanted to hang out. She said she can't today but can Sunday. And then stated there's something she wanted to talk to me about
I asked if I did anything wrong. (Honestly what could it be? I'm trying to stay open to whatever she needs. I haven't said anything mean lately. I've been telling her sisters to tell her I miss her. I feel like she's the one hurting me rn but ok)
She said she didn't want to get into it until we're in person, but just to know that she wasn't mad.
What?? What does that even mean. She didn't exactly negate my question. Honestly if she needed to talk to me about something, why wasn't she the first to bring it up? Why hold some sort of silent grudge against me for 2 weeks? When I don't even know what she's upset about
Why why why why
I thought I made peace with everyone.
Finally made up with Bret
On good friend terms with Filipino boy
A wonderful fun friendship with B
Trying to watch what I say around Coconut bc she's actually sunshine and pretty sensitive
Checking up on Daniel bc he's a good friend and I shouldn't forget that
Ok Robert and I don't exactly see eye to eye but he's hardly in my life atm
So just why. I'm trying to be a peacemaker.