If you're around.
- Locked due to inactivity on Aug 4, '16 4:30pm
Thread Topic: If you're around.
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You can ignore this all you want, but eventually it will get to you.
I know you're hurting. I know that between online s--- and family, everything is breaking you like it did to me. Therefore I understand that you need time to calm down and find some level of happiness and feel good with yourself before you think about reading this. I also know that you THINK you're holding me back, but you aren't. I'm at my full potential no matter what the case. And you are too. Andi, you're just as pretty and smart and all of that fantastic s---. You're just as "good" as me. However.. We both know that you honestly need me just as much as I need you. I'm scared to death that you'll take your opportunity to try to "stop existing" now that you've "put your guilt aside" or whatever. You haven't. You're making the whole situation worse. I don't care if you ignore me. You can. You'll be breaking my heart in two, and I bet I'll fail my classes because of the serious depression, but you can. All I ask is that this won't be your goodbye note and that you'll talk to me or tell someone else that can relay your answer.
Because what you don't know is that you're basically trying to tell me that I don't need you when I do. My friends are saying the same thing. We have a mere 6 days until our eighth anniversary is here. I know you've deleted all means of contact with me, but god dammit, I need you. I need you so much. Even if we can't get married, and even if you refuse to take me back as your girlfriend because you don't think it'll work out, won't you PLEASE at least TALK to me? Can't we be friends? Can't you be my mother like you used to be..?
I've already asked everyone. They never hated you. They never thought you were ruining our friendship. Honestly, they all thought we were the perfect match. I haven't lost six friends. I've lost a girlfriend, my heart, and my will to strive for life. If you're still alive, if you still have access to my email and you aren't blocking it, please. Just.. Stay alive. I know it's hard. I know I haven't been there for you. But don't you dare die on me. That sounded like.. A suicide note.. And you'll just break me worse if I knew I caused your death somehow.
All I want is one last response.
You promised you'd live for me.
You promise you loved me.
Don't go breaking your promises now. -
the wind Newbiewow.
...so familiar. O.O -
I knew I shouldn't have posted this in the Lounge holy s---.
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i cried
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I've lost all respect for you fools. Oh well. I'm sure she'll still understand the importance of looking at my s---..
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the wind NewbieI mean this is so much like how I feel sometimes ok nothing weird
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I don't really care. I just knew that my ex purposely deleted all means of contact and I knew that if I made this and emailed her and did my best to get her to see this I'd have a chance at keeping her A) Alive B) Happy and C) to get her to realize what a f---ing mistake this was.
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the wind Newbie...what i said stands its really familiar to a friend of mine; Megan. I knew her since I was like 4 and two years ago she moved; we never got her new adress, she didnt move far but we dont know exactly where. The only way weve been able to talk is via facebook and ive only had that about 9 or 10 months now.
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I want to puke on you. I want to make you defiled. Clearly you're not getting my hint. Please leave, please leave this thread alone, please stop trying to talk to me because I'm so not in the mood.
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the wind Newbieyou dont get my point because your so caught up in trying to get me to leave!
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I don't exactly care about your point..
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