Foxhole
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Thread Topic: Foxhole
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I'M JUST SO LONELY!
Why am I so lonely?! -
I feel miserable and I just want to cry all day. At night, I have really disturbing thoughts, and my deepest fears haunt me all night. I'm an insomniac from the stress, now. I don't sleep.
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And something's been making me so scared lately that I feel like I'm going to throw up every time I sit down to eat dinner.
I'm constantly anxious and scared and just a mess that feels like sitting around and crying.
I don't know what to do. -
I feel like I'm the only person in the world yet I can see people pass me by right outside my window.
Everyone in my neighborhood has something against my family because of my spiteful nextdoor neighbors. Just a few weeks ago, the man next door threatened to harm my dad.
I was afraid to go outside after that.
I just don't want to be here, and i keep distracting myself with little enjoyable things in life when all and all, I know life is just horrible and I don't even want one.
I'm stuck here until I pass away, and I know this. I try to find something to enjoy, but there's nothing here for me. Yet I feel inclined to hold my breath and hope -
My heart is physically aching. I often fear that I'll have a heart attack or something. I can't take this anymore.
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Hey, what's troubling you? I'm here for you if you need me đź’›
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Oh, thank you.
It's a lot going on, really.
I'm just unusually lonely, anxious, and scared. I feel at some point of the day like I'm going to throw up, I'm worrying so much.
I don't know how it got this bad. -
Do you know when this all started? That could help you see what's causing it.
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I think it started early this month.
There's been a lot of stress and backlash about the LGBTQ community. My parents disagree with the community's existance and I might be worried about my own safety when I hear them talk so hostile about that.
I feel like I don't feel like I really even want to be 18. I feel a little anxious about this because on one hand, I'd be of legal age to eventually do things for myself. But, on the other hand, I feel like I've been alive too long as it is. So, I'm torn between wanting this life and not wanting this life.
Everything seems to set my family off. I'm always in trouble and I can't seem to find a way to diffuse the situation anymore. Even if I walk away, they follow me around until I submit to what they want me to do/say/think/feel.
I guess I generally feel threatened or stressed to even be here, and I grow lonelier by the second because I never get to see anyone I'd like to see. -
God, I feel so awkward right now.
And I bet...
No, just don't start that. -
I don't really know what else to do, at this point.
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Hey, how are you feeling right now?
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Everything's okay-ish, right now.
I feel like I might be a little less necessary to people.
And what about myself? I mean, really? Is that it? I put so much work into others and all I get (not involving most of the people I do things for) is the cruddiest done to me. -
So, now that you don't need me, you're just going to blow me off?
Why do I even spend so much time helping you and showing that I care when all you do is act like I don't exist afterwards?
And what am I--just a pair of ears to listen to your rambling when you want attention? -
I'm fed up with you and people like you!
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