Rain Drops Blossoming
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Thread Topic: Rain Drops Blossoming
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That always hurts so much more than I'm ready for.
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I dont deserve what I do to myself.
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I scare people away.
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I might.. post some of my poetry. I dont know.
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Bubbles float up around me, encircling
Trying to lift me from this pool of loathing
Self isolating
Breathing slows as this self imposed drowning
Won't ever seem to stop
I drive away everyone, just by nature
I am sick
I am swamped
I am everything I have ever called myself
I am a toy
A monster
A b----
A blessing
A sin
A stain
I am drowning in all those things I have ever said
I hasten my own destruction
I scare those who have loved me
I am broken
Scrambled
My identity is fragile
Everyone thinks I am something else
Loving,
Caring,
Beautiful,
But I am not sure if I am because
I know what lurks inside, subjugating, wrestling
Straining for control
I have seen her. I know her.
A monster who waits below
I want to lock her away and throw away the key
She looks at me, taunting me, beckoning for me
She is insecurity
She is ice
She is devil
And evil
The deepest part of me.
She is my fear
She is me -
Yikes.
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