It's as if everyday I have the same depressing realization.
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Thread Topic: It's as if everyday I have the same depressing realization.
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My happiness comes from the thought of people who I never have and never will meet doing things they probably never did and probably never will do.
My happiness is derived from fantasy.
Fantasy is my happiness.
Happiness is a fantasy.
And I don't know what to do about that, so you know what I'm going to do? Drown in my fantasies until I've forgotten about my pathetic reality. All of this, because I'm ignorant. -
scarlet4ever NewbieNo... I think you have a problem and I don't have ny solution. I feel so useless
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Don't feel useless. I don't have a solution either. I'm kind of just ranting pointlessly right now. I'll be over it in a few hours.
You know, it's painful knowing your own ignorance. It's painful when you're at the point that you don't know how to be anything but ignorant, because you don't know anything, because you're ignorant. All I can do is sit and watch myself act stupid, because that's all I know how to do. My own stupidity is killing me. -
scarlet4ever NewbieIf you think what you do is stupid then why don't you try doing something you have no done that you think is not stupid
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I don't know how. I mean, I don't want to. Well, I never tried, but
I don't know how to try. I think.
Perhaps I'm just powerless. I mean, all of us are powerless in such a huge universe, but I must be on the lowest possible level. No, no, I'm not powerless. I know what I'm doing. I'm denying my ability to control my own actions in an attempt to get rid of any responsibility. I think that's what I'm doing. I'm lazy and irresponsible. Okay, I admitted it. Now what? That did nothing. I'm aware and doing nothing. I tell myself I want to fix all of this, stop my ignorance, stop my denial, and I do nothing? Do I just not want it, or does this combination of problems prevent any action? -
Alright, this is all falling into place. It's just kind of strange that I talk about myself like an observer. It's even more strange that I'm self-aware and not doing anything. Wait, actually, considering what I am, it's not strange that I don't do anything. These thoughts have been consuming my mind for months- I observe myself, I comment on anything I do, I correct myself, and I treat myself as if I'm debating myself. It's been driving me insane, but now I think I've finally got it. I'm through here for tonight.
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scarlet4ever NewbieWell, if that's the problem,I think you should try to stop being lazy, and try not to look down on yourself. It could be that you thinking you are so low is what is preventing you from making ny effort to change yourself. I don't think you should glorify yourself or anything, but maybe you should stop comparing yourself to other. That's the most discouraging thing you can do if you re in this kind of situation.
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scarlet4ever Newbie*late post sorry
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Got it. I'll try that. Goodnight.
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scarlet4ever NewbieGoodnight.c:
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