WHY AM I NOT WANTED?
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Thread Topic: WHY AM I NOT WANTED?
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I'm not desperate
It's just, all my life I've been treated like trash.
And I have been nice to those people, even if they've treated me that way.
And I've never been treated the same way.
I was loved by Mary and Kevin.
But now Mary's gone to university.
And Kevin's dead.
Nobody even cares about me!
Nobody cares if I live or die
I'm bullied by the homophobics
I'm bullied by the 'popular' girls.
I'm not smart enough.
I'm not pretty enough.
I'm not loving enough.
BUT WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO BE WANTED AND GOOD ENOUGH?! T^T -
Damn thats tough, there has to be someone out there for you though. People are picky and like to be mean. I say the people that treat you like trash even when you're nice to them, the homophobes, and the so called popular b----es are all just the same big group of douchebags so f--- them, don't care or think about them at all. I know what its like to lose friends and it sucks, I guess you gotta just try to meet new people. There are people that care whether you live or die on here atleast, Carri and you are good friends aren't you and Heph and others. If you feel that you aren't pretty or smart just remember their is always gonna be someone so much more stupid and uglier than you feel you are. As for the not being loving enough that sounds more like your own thing you need to put some effort into. Don't know what else to say but I hope things get better for you.
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God, I relate to you so much Vege, the same s--- has happened to me. But I can honestly say you're one of my best friends and I know we're online and I can't be there to hug and comfort you but I KNOW that if you died that would hurt me. You're going to go far in life and all the b----es and homophobes won't even matter. To me you are beautiful because your personality just reveals how awesome you are. :)
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*sigh*
I'm bullied by everyone who meets me...My sisters are all adults, and I rarely see my brothers.
My only friends truthfully are you guys and Kids under the age of 8...*Epic tear*
Vege, Popular girls make fun of me in front of me, thinking I'm too much of a idiot to understand them.
My only boyfriends I've ever had used me.
I never knew my dad's dad, my grandpa. He died when I was born, coming to see me.
It was a car wreck, and I've been blamed for his death my whole life.
I am the cat girl, i know every species of cat alive..People are mean to me about that.
My dad beats me, and I'm moving into a house the size of a garage, because it once was.
I've been sexually harrased MANY times, and I have been called alot worse things then a b----.
I've been accused of being a lesbian.
My nephew flirts with me...
I am far from pretty, I'm rarely called cute.
My best thing about me is my eyes and my personality, though my personality brings me down..
I do not have the capability to hate, I've tried.
My first kiss was a couple months ago, but it was to my perverted ex.
I play trombone, which gets alot of people making fun of me.
I talk about anime constantly, and get made fun of because of that.
SO I DON"T WANT TO HEAR IT.
Everyone's life is horribe in thier own ways.
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I know how you feel. Anyone, really, I can relate to in a certain way.
Vege, I've been just about everyone unfortunetly, or hung out with just about every type of person. But because of that, I kinda know why people do certain things. People make fun of you because they are insecure about themselves, look at someone awesome like you and feel total envy... and they hate. It's a sad thing to do, but they do it anyway. You don't feel smart or pretty or loving enough because you let yourself believe that. You can't do that to yourself, hon D: I mean, I know I might b---- every once in a while that I'm fat and ugly, but everyone is beautiful in our own ways, and we should be proud of that. We can't let other people bring us down, because if you do, then they unfortunetly win. And I know we are just 'people online' but anyone needs to realize that outside of the posts, we are real people in a real world... and even though we don't see you face-to-face, we love you, care about you, and would be devistated if you, or any other one of our GTQ Family members died. -
Vege.. :( you're not alone. Maybe people didn't go through the same exact experiences you're going through, but who knows.. there's a lot of people with lives worse than anyone on here.
I sorta feel the same too sometimes.. I never feel beautiful. Or loved. Guys think I'm invisible unless I'm acting crazy. My brain has no focus in it and I have no self control over myself. I feel like sh1t a lot. I look like a zombie now ---
Okay that's not the point.
The point is that you're not alone and that we're always here for you when you're troubled. We wuv you! -
Thanks guys...
sorry for being so... whiny these last few days... and I truely just want to hug and comfort the rest of you... I understand what you all are going through, and you understand what I'm going through.
And Ellis, Kevin wasn't a friend.
He was my brother.
He was killed by drunk drivers on New Years five years back.
I really miss him...
That's why I'm so sad as the year ends...
He was married and was still in university, and only had a few more years left.
And he goes out to run an errand, and next thing you know, a car hit him, and he was badly injured, then died a few minutes later. -
@Vege ;( *hugs*
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@vege I'm so sorry to hear that. Little s--- like that happens where you're just doing something unimportant and then everything gets so f---ed up when if you were running a second late it may not have happened. I'd have killed that drunk motherf---er and nothing would have stopped me I hope you get to feeling better.
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@Vege: Knowing that Kevin loved you, and that he was always there for you is what matters. I can tell it's hard to let go, you don't have to. All you need is knowing that he's in a better place. Things happen for a reason, Kevin probably knows that you'll be fine without him. He's still there for you -in your heart- don't think he's out of your life. One day you'll see him -probably, most likely- I'm so sorry to hear about that.
I have a relitive named Kevin too, but he doesn't care about me. At least your Kevin cares about you.
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