I'm so tired. and impatient.
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Thread Topic: I'm so tired. and impatient.
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When I first started drawing in 2011 I did it for the sake of having a hobby to share with some of my closest friends as a lot of them were artists. One of my first friends in high school is an artist, and my long time best friend is an artist. It was fun and enjoyable and I could care less about being good at it. Time went by and somewhere along the lines it stop becoming fun, and it's become a tiring definition of who I am. That's all people seem to know me for now, but that's not the point of this vent/rant/whatever.
I've only been drawing for bit less than three years, and I feel like I should be at some form of professional level (Yeah, that's pretty unrealistic and f---ed.) I feel like I'm worthless and a terrible artist because I'm not. I'm so stressed out because I feel like I should be constantly improving and improving and I have to force it because I'm not feeling the drive to do it. Art feels like a chore now because it's my chosen profession and the only thing I'm good at.
and I just feel so tired that I can't draw anymore. It's the only thing that'd make me feel better when I'm depressed and now it makes me feel worse when I do. I feel so much stress from this pressed time frame that I can't do this anymore. I'm impatient for improvement and I feel pushed to get professional before I graduate otherwise I'll fail.
It makes me wonder if it's worth continuing anymore, but I know that if I stop, I'll have nothing to my name. I feel trapped, and worthless thanks to something that would once make me happy.
I've lost what's important and now I don't know what to do. -
Maybe you could take a break from drawing for a month or so and come back to it,
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You define your art. Your art doesn't define you. Take a break, or experiment with some other art form like poetry or sculpting or acting. If you're not enjoying what you're doing, then there's something wrong.
And if you can't give up drawing, throw away everything you believe in. Forget what anatomy says you can and can't do. Forget color theory. Destroy what you know from the roots, and grow it up again. -
I'd say you're pretty damn professional, from what I've seen. You can draw awesome stuff with your opposite hand that I can't even draw with my main hand.
But if you don't want to draw, there are millions of other things you can do. -
Yeah, don't burn yourself out. Take a break from it. I know exactly how you feel, I graduate in just two years and to be honest I'm stressed and scared as hell. I'm doing something science, I don't really know yet honestly. I know what you mean when you say your feeling pressed inside a time frame. Remember you have your life ahead of you to find who you are, you're an AMAZING artist. And not being number one doesn't mean you failed.
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:P DON'T STOP BELEVINN.
Just like the song my The Eagles. I've been so tired, and haven't much focused on my art, my drawing section of my brain decides to disfunction and make me draw crappy as ever. And the same things I draw,... wait.. maybe I'm having an art block, but still. Stick to that and this "The Impossible is possible -
...AP did you just say that Don't Stop Believing was by the Eagles? It's by Journey.
Carri, I know exactly how you feel right now. I love to read and write, but for some reason I'm either frustrated or not into it, but without it I feel broken, like I'm missing something almost. All I can tell you is to try to find something else, maybe something you thought you'd never expect to like (knitting, crafts, ect). I joined the drama club and it's starting to fill the whole that reading has left me in. -
From what I can tell the eagles is a high school that lip synced to Don't stop believing. They aren't a band.
I looked it up on youtube and that's how it looked to me. If the eagles are a real band then I'm sorry, but Bread is right. It was by Journey.
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