losing hope and sleep v2
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Thread Topic: losing hope and sleep v2
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and she finally responds with 2 lies in a row 😭 so done
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she just blocked me what the f---
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bruh i am so doneeee wtf
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plus tomorrow's already pre-planned out to be awful for me
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i have no idea how i am going to handle tomorrow morning
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like how am i even supposed to start it?
hey megan, good morning. i want to look like skin and bones and im nearly there! by the way, im infertile due to malnutrition and my hair is falling out! also, i've ate a total of 400 calories since i saw you last tuesday, 7 days ago! i want to die and i actually tried to last week! my friends all hate me because my brain is messed up and foggy due to not eating anything, and i no longer know what is real and what isn't! i overthink genuinely every single interaction i have which makes me hate myself even more, and i also forget personal information about myself, so i have to write everything down now :)
anyways, how're the cats? -
like 💀💀💀💀
i've had a therapist for the past 2 months because of my anxiety, and now im supposed to dump all this on her?
i literally don't even have a choice because my friend put a deadline on me, and if i don't seek professional help by tomorrow, she's showing my mother every single text i have sent my friends about my sh, ed, and s*icidal tendencies, and telling my mom just how deep my ed goes -
but she blocked me today, so we'll see how that goes. basically, i'm f---ed whether i tell my therapist or not
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if anyone is stalking and reading this, if you have any advice on how i 'break the news' to my therapist tomorrow, please share because i am so lost 😭😭
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well, she responded but i'm still blocked on most things.
and, he has stopped ignoring me finally, and we're having a deep discussion about my wellbeing. i feel bad for bringing him into it, but he talks about himself sometimes anyways.
also, my fingers are blue. i think if i go another day without food there will be serious, serious consequences. -
ate 450 cals worth of dinner and couldn't even hold it down for 20 minutes
i think i missed my head aching and my stomach crying and not being able to stand -
well i did it 😭 my therapist is now aware of my ed 😭 genuinely terrified for what happens next now
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I'll pray for you buddy, hope everything goes well for you 💛 also eating a little bit is better than eating nothing so it's 100% okay to take it step by step at a time
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i don't understand why some things mean the way they do 😭😭
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