there's something i can buy on the internet but i don't know if it is even legit
it might not work
and they could think the parcel is suspicious and open it
so i've decided i can't do that
and the parcel might not work and they could find me and revive me
i worked so hard and waited so long to get this, i don't want to lose it and mess it up
but i guess on the other hand it could work
and if i don't try anything i could be here for years
being annoyed and offended everyday by them as i wait for him to do something
and years could go by with me living like that