so these girls in my english class are lowkey bullying me now
one of them said I was crazy and I cried for two hours when I got home
it hurts, not gonna lie
one of them is on both of my busses and I want to die
I thought the bullying thing would stop when I moved but I guess I freak people out with my shakiness and list of disorders
I thought I was doing good lately, but apparently I'm "weird" and "crazy"
they're taking the approach where they talk about me while I'm in earshot on purpose
I sit directly in front of them
so this is nice
I don't want to stand out. I want more than anything to just blend in and be normal but I can't
I want to not be like this, I've been trying so hard to get better but it looks like nobody can tell but me
I don't think I'm ever going to get better, it's been years and I'm still the same
some weird antisocial freak
I don't think you're weird or crazy (Not in a bad way at least, everyone is at least a little weird)
You're a great friend
And you're kind and caring
And fun to talk to and funny
And don't listen to them if you can, please
No homo :)
Those girls bully you so that people focus on your insecurities instead of theirs. Trying to fit in is survival of the fittest. People fit in are like Omegas. People who are popular are like Alphas. People who stand out because they're weird are like Betas.
The Beta is often abused by the Alpha, because the Alpha wants the Beta to be an Omega. Often, the Beta will fold and become an Omega. But they are still abused because they are meant to be Betas. In other cases, the Beta will defeat the Alpha and choose to stand out. Then they challenge the Alpha. Then Either earning the right to be a Beta, or becoming the Alpha.
I am a weirdo. I tried to fit in. I succeeded. But they still saw me as an annoying weirdo. So I chose a third option, because the Alpha of that society was too brutal to fight. So I left that society. Like a wolf leaving the pack. I was then welcomed into a new pack. And I'm choosing to stand out. I'm slowly becoming the Alpha of my new society.