he won't even talk to me or acknowledge I'm talking to him
but I don't think it's my fault
he has really bad depressive lows like this, especially when he doesn't take his medicine
it scares me a little bit when he gets like this
I wish so bad that I could make everything okay for him but I can't
I can't do anything
we're trying to pinpoint when exactly I went from making out with girls all the time to 'if you touch me I will kill you and light myself on fire'
I think I always disliked touch, and I always broke kissing off first and then would feel utter disgust for the next two days so it wasn't a sudden change