The Minefield
Thread Topic: The Minefield
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maybe this July?
Everything will finally fall into place
It has been a year and a Half Avi..
Its probably still not happening for a while -
I hope I'm wrong
otherwise I'm giving on it as a whole
because every good relationship that falls apart makes things feel more and more fake
Of course T is a special case but Dammit Im still sitting here
things are far from perfect
I do not feel comfortable in my own home
T has not messaged me in nearly a week.
He normally tells me about when he's gonna be unavailable. -
Its been litterally five f---ing days
And yes I know I am guilty of being unavailable too because most of the f---ing time I'm Stoned out of my mind. or preoccupied with work. There is no excuse for my actions there and I need to do better at showing him I actually do love him. Clearly look at how much ground I have covered.
Now its
How about we snug this month? Next Month The Month After?
Nope wont work, Always the same thing.
Im tired of being stuck in this f---ing second chapter living with strangers waiting for a dam miracle. It can't be that hard hun.
I get it maybe I am not the greatest boyfriend or whatever but if he had a problem he would tell me!
And im f---ing swallowing again instead of crying
By the Eternal Flame Why Cant I f---ing express it! -
I wake up and still nothing
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2 hours till six days
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His phone is clearly not dead.
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To be 100% honest I've been distant from just about everybody. L, K, T and my other 2 sisters.
Hell.. -
I'm just tired of waiting. It's like it's my own personal hell. Because who else do I know that has worse patients than me who else do I know that gets as easily worried as me.
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Every night I come into work like this I feel like it'll be mine the last night working because all it takes is one minor fuse to blow. Because I'll be honest this s--- f---ing matters to me yes my job matters to me as well but what the f--- am I working for if it's just a Non-Stop waiting game and I don't even know if he's okay. Message him on Telegram no response. Message him through his actual number still no response but showing that he's active? I refuse to believe he's running some sort of f---ing crude test on me
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f---ing years
f---ing years and next month It will be another.
Me and him have been together longer than I was with the name that shall not be spoken. -
Im not ready for tonight
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I don't really know what's going on but I know the feeling. Someone I care a lot about once disappeared on me for a month. I was worried 86.4% to death
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It's my boyfriend
It's been almost a week and normally the Maxi goes without speaking to me it's two days and even then he tells me that he's not going to be available. This time he's been gone for 6 days and has told me nothing. The last time we spoke was about terrible hot sauce. Then I assumed he fell asleep never got a message during the day time nor the next night. I didn't let it bother me until 5 days have passed because to be frank I don't know what's going on oh, I don't know if he's okay, he's responded to me not at all. I can't call him because the service out where he lives is absolute ass and if he is in danger and I was too it's my happy ass up there it would take 2 hours and it would have to be by bus during the daytime. That's not so logical. So here I am just sitting on my ass waiting. Hoping that he's okay but also I have my doubts cuz this is the f---ing Northwest. -
The max he goes*
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Yeah...I know how that feels. About the same scale for me, going a week was really unusual back then so that's about when I started to worry, and it ended up being a month before I heard anything.
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