How the f*** does this make any sense I'm trying to understand it but I just can't. He says all these hurtful things directly at me not knowing that I am actually the same guy that I've been for the past f****** 19 years of my f****** life. You think I feel great whenever I'm being berated every time I speak being called a cold-hearted killer being called a demon. For f---sake you're agnostic if anything you probably don't even know what a demon is after all you thought that if a demon touches another person that automatically makes him a demon you're being f****** retarded I never thought I'd say that about you. I never died no matter how many times that played in your head I never killed myself I never got killed I don't know how many times I have to tell you that you may have had visions of it but it never happened you're making it very very hard to show my love. I Feel like punching a hole in the wall.